These days shall pass

So how many more days till school starts? There are days I swear that I could totally lose my mind. Is that hard to believe? That a mother of five could be declared legally insane? Yeah probably not. Seriously a toy lays there all day and one shows interest and all of sudden there is revolt right in the middle of the living room declaring whose toy it really is. Yes it sat there all day but because you showed interest in it it is really mine. Yes I am looking forward to school starting. Not only will have two out of the house but for two days out of the week for two and half hours I will only have two. Now that is a true bonus is it not?! And I want one more. I seriously am insane, but oh well. I look at all five of them and the chaos that occurs day after day and I wouldn't have it any other way. Jessalynn intelligence astounds me day after day. Arissa has a quick wit and is passionate. Lyra makes me laugh day in and day out. Melina's smile could brighten up the darkest room. And I am totally in love with the new man in my life. Yes it may not be for everyone but I love my life and I wouldn't change it for anything. So how do I do it? One day at a time and sometimes just one minute at a time. I have been reflecting lately on Hosea since the anniversary of his death is coming up. I think of a little boy with angel wings holding his grandma's hand waiting for me. I am doing a balloon release on August 8th. Take care of him mom till we can all be together again and with that I think I am going to hit post.

Melina turns 2!

Despite the face that I got mastitis Melina had her birthday! I can't believe she is two already! Wasn't it just yesterday she was born? Almost an Independence day baby the two year old is starting to shine through. She got plenty of presents for her birthday including a sandbox and a water table.

Orion Jason Phillip

I swear I know I have a blog. I need to update more often. So he is here... yes Orion Jason Phillip was born on June 21 at 3:16 pm. He weighed 6lbs 2 ozs and 20 1/2 inches long. Short and lean! So I had to have a c section since the little guy decided to move on me. The girls are in love with their little brother. Jesslaynn especially can't wait till he is older and can play football with her! Orion is a true miracle and I thank God very day for him. I know his big brother Hosea is watching over him. Yes I bawled like a baby when Orion came out. I was so happy and so relived to see that he was here and healthy. It is amazing how you can love a little person so much. He has blue eyes and light brown here and he has the "nose" that all of the girls have been born with. Also the birth of Orion made me want to call my grandma and than I remembered she was no longer with us, but I knew that she was watching over him and me that day. It is truly amazing the guardian angels that we have . My grandma, my mom, and a sweet little baby boy that I will meet in heaven some day.

Here is our miracle

Nesting and names

Recently I have become a clean freak and that is so unlike me. Usually I am not bothered by a mess or something not put away but lately it is like I have to clean everything. I think nesting is in high gear. On my list

Clean out fridge, freezer , and pantry.
Clean out the laundry room and the closets
Start on the basement. This is the big since the basement is like one huge junk drawer.
There are also many miscellaneous things on my list as well.

Now for the other big thing now is Scott is not 100% sure about the name Orion. I wish he would have told me that early since I order this for him



I think it is the most adorable thing! I was going to pack this and have it as is going home outfit. Well we still have about six weeks or so. So maybe Orion will just have to stick :)

Happy Spring!

It has been a busy time at the Riedesel household. Jessalynn and I are in book reading challenge for this month and next. My goal in doing so was that she would spend less time with the TV, the computer, and her video games. I want her to know the importance of using her imagination more and books more than anything can help her along in that. So far she has read a ton. She finished A Wrinkle in Time last week. Arissa had her first sleepover this weekend. She is getting so big! Lyra has her open house for preschool this week. I cannot believe she will be in preschool this fall. Time is going by too fast. Melina has shown interest in potty training. Could it be that by the time Orion is born I could have only one baby in diapers? That would be heaven for me! Orion weighed in at 3 pounds and 3 ounces at our last ultrasound. Less than nine weeks to go!

They grow up fast

Arissa turned six on Saturday. I can't believe how fast they grow up. I can remember when Jessalynn turned six. It only seems like yesterday and now she is nine. It seems like the older I get the faster time goes by. I know that they are suppose to grow up but does it have to be so fast? Melina will be two in July and that seems so unreal to me as well. Enjoy the moments each moment that you have with your child because you will never get it back.

Still can't believe it

So Lyra comes to me today and says I miss grandma. It nearly broke my heart. I miss her so much. We had a very complicated relationship but I miss being able to call her. I miss her wisdom. In general I miss that she is gone. It seems like only yesterday she was here for Melina's first birthday party. I was so happy she came. I am glad she got to see where we live. It is sad to think of what she will not be here for and family get togethers are going to be so different from now on. It is hard not to pick up the phone and call her. I did yesterday and when it said the number you dialed has been disconnected it was like oh yeah. She is really gone. She was such an important part of our family. She was loved and now she is missed.

memories

I was down in the basement today and looking through the girls memory boxes. I have a tub for each girl and soon Orion will have one too. In it I keep cards and other special things they have collected throughout their lives. Well I was looking through I found many cards from my grandmother. The girls loved getting cards from their great grandmother. I never threw them away. Some day when they are older they will see how many card their great grandmother. Some people may call me a pack rat but I call it memories.

23 weeks here I come/ grandma

Almost to 23 weeks! I cannot believe what a journey this pregnancy has been. It has been filled with a lot of nervousness on my behalf but Scott has been right there reassure me everything is going to be fine. In these past weeks my grandmother passed away and it saddens me to know that she will not be here to meet Orion when he is born but I know that he has a special angel watching over him. Grandma passing was very hard as this disease called cancer spread more rapidly than what any of us thought. I have not removed her number from my cell phone yet as it seems that I cannot bring myself to do that. Even though I know I will never call her again and hear her voice saying Henamans. Strange, I never heard her answer the phone in any other way. I know she is in heaven with grandpa, my mom, my baby, and a host of others that were there to welcome her into heaven. I know she did not beat the cancer the way she would have wanted with modern treatments such as chemo and radiation, but I know she is in heaven now saying I beat you now cancer. I beat you know.