23 weeks here I come/ grandma

Almost to 23 weeks! I cannot believe what a journey this pregnancy has been. It has been filled with a lot of nervousness on my behalf but Scott has been right there reassure me everything is going to be fine. In these past weeks my grandmother passed away and it saddens me to know that she will not be here to meet Orion when he is born but I know that he has a special angel watching over him. Grandma passing was very hard as this disease called cancer spread more rapidly than what any of us thought. I have not removed her number from my cell phone yet as it seems that I cannot bring myself to do that. Even though I know I will never call her again and hear her voice saying Henamans. Strange, I never heard her answer the phone in any other way. I know she is in heaven with grandpa, my mom, my baby, and a host of others that were there to welcome her into heaven. I know she did not beat the cancer the way she would have wanted with modern treatments such as chemo and radiation, but I know she is in heaven now saying I beat you now cancer. I beat you know.